Losing.

December 5, 2012

Finally! Some Progress!  Hooray! I have dropped 2 pounds per week for the past 2 weeks.  After a months long stretch of maintaining, this feels AMAZING.

I have been running 1 mile at every trip to the gym (plus time on the elliptical) and I have been squeezing in outdoor runs as well.  I did 2 miles in 25 minutes this past Saturday and it hardly felt like work. I’m excited to see how the weather is this coming Saturday because I can’t wait to get outdoors again.  Early morning runs are out of the question (way too dark) and so are after work with little fading daylight once I am home.  I am thinking of actually following through and finding a 5K in my area in the Springtime.  I have this irrational fear of any type of group fitness…classes included, but I really want to run a 5 K and if I think of it like running on a treadmill next to other people at the gym, it doesn’t seem so scary.

I hope to keep up the losing until the end of the year…it would feel awesome to start 2013 off almost 30 pounds lighter than a year ago.

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Stuck.

September 24, 2012

So.  I have been losing and gaining the same four pounds for about two months now.  It is getting really old.  I’ve decided there needs to be some major changes to my routine.  I’m going to keep with the moderate to high intensity early morning workouts but I’m striving to do something different every day.  For example, today I ran intervals of running/power walking switching every minute on the treadmill for 25 minutes.  Then I did the aerobic program on the elliptical for 15 minutes.  I think I need to get over my fear of something new and try the rowing machine.  I used to bike either on the stationary or recumbent and I haven’t been doing either lately.  I’m also going to start walking a couple miles in the evenings as well.  I need to get my husband in on this (he recently went from retail where he was on his feet all day long back to a graphic design 9-5 job where he sits all day) as well.  The fresh air will do us both good and since we are in Ohio, the pleasant early fall weather could be gone any day.

The biggest thing is: I need to clean up my diet.  I am not doing very good lately with making healthy choices with what I put in my body.  I need to remember just because it is the weekend, it does not justify eating poorly.  Or just because I had a shit day at work, doesn’t mean I get to eat pizza for dinner. Breaking 20+ years of emotional eating does not happen over night, but I have already made gigantic strides on certain things.  I no longer eat when I’m bored, and any time I’m hungry right after eating I drink a glass of water because I’ve learned I’m usually just thirsty.  I often think of the following quote I saw on Pinterest:

“Do not reward yourself with food, you are not a dog.”

I also need to remember it took 2.5 years for me to gain almost 40 pounds, Losing 20 of that in 9 months isn’t horrible progress.  It is twenty pounds down.  I have a 2 1/2 year old niece who weighs about 26 pounds (she is a lil thing!) and that is practically what I was carrying around before.  That is some heavy stuff.  I need to stop comparing my current progress to how my last weight loss went.  That was three years ago.  This is now.  I need to learn to stop looking back so much.
It doesn’t get you anywhere but stuck.

This week is all about looking forward, because like it or not, the future becomes the present every day.

Thoughts and stuff.

September 11, 2012

I have been keeping up with my early morning gym trips where I have gotten back into a routine of running 3 days a week and elliptical machine-ing it the rest of the time.  Somedays if I am feeling bored, I’ll split time between a bike and the elliptical as well. I have also added daily strength exercises, because I felt like I wasn’t getting enough lately.  This also keeps me from getting bored with the same thing every day.  Which is totally key to sticking with it.  As the weather gets cooler, I’m thinking about adding a morning run to Saturday or Sunday.  I love this time of year, so to be able to run in it makes me a happy woman.

I know I expected to have lost a lot more by this time when I set out back in January to finally take control over my habits.  I think gaining a new approach and outlook to my life (after flailing a bit in the beginning) makes my slow yet steady pace alright.

People have been noticing my weight loss.  Sometimes I notice it as well.  But I need to weigh in.  It has been a few weeks since my last one. I have an irrational (and long running) fear of the number on the scale.  I need to get over this because seeing tangible proof is always a good thing.

Busy times.

August 16, 2012

My co-worker (who I work very closely with) is out on maternity leave, so I am extra busy at work lately.  This leaves little to no time for updates.  I am going to try and pop in a few times a week in the evenings though.

I have kept my morning gym routine going, and it feels amazing to see that I have lost 4 pounds in the last 3 weeks.  It feels so great to see results, so hopefully I can keep doing what I am doing.

Every morning I have a choice to get up and head to the gym or to stay in bed for another hour and a half.  I choose to get up and go get my sweat on.  It is not the easy option, but for me it is the right option and I know my future self will thank me some day.

Numbers.

July 24, 2012

There is a reason I do not own a scale.

I used to weigh in once a week at the gym.  Until another regular told me the scale is very unreliable/inconsistent.

My at work weight loss challenge is monitored by co-worker’s scale she volunteered we all use.  Once a week for the past 8 weeks I have weighed in.  And it has stressed me out more than it should.  Every. Week.

I obsess over numbers.  The weight never comes off as fast as I think it should.  A gain of absolutely anything unhinges me.  I forget about all the positive benefits of my 6 times a week exercise: way more energy, better overall mood, inches lost and muscles I have never seen defined are suddenly visible.  I just feel so much better in general on days where I have “sweated it out.”

But I haven’t lost enough weight.  That’s all I can think.

Carrying it around is getting heavy.

Friday is the final weigh in at work.  I am not getting my hopes up, I just hope to move the scale a bit down once again.  Last week I lost 3 pounds (after a two week gain of 4.2).  Hopefully the end of the Weight Loss Challenge will take some of the pressure off of my journey.  I feel like people thought I would do better because I have been at this for an entire 7 months now.

I’m not doing this for them, or anyone but myself.  I am not doing this for numbers on a scale, that is just a side effect.

I have the best-best friend ever. Yesterday we did something together I never thought we would. We ran two miles. Together! This was my inaugural running with someone run.  It was nice. I’m pretty sure having someone else next to me increased my speed. She has about 3 inches in height on me and a much more fit physique so while I never thought I would transform into a runner, I also never thought I would run with her of all people.  I hope to make it a weekly occurrence if she is up for it.

This morning I tested out showering at the gym and then heading straight to work. After a nice workout (I did some abs mat work, ran a mile and then hopped on the elliptical for a while) I showered and got ready in about 20 minutes, even though there were some kinks.  I used to shower at the gym when I was still in college since I also worked on campus to boot.  I need to check into getting a monthly locker rental.  It would make the whole process easier to not have to take all the essentials every day.

I’m gong to toot my own horn a bit: I’m in awe of my self for getting up at 5:30 am in order to hit the gym early. It feels like I accomplish so much before most people are even awake for the day. This is not to say I wasn’t groggy and a little bit annoyed when the alarm went off, but I chose to get up anyway.  A big part of healthy living for me is making choices that are not the easiest but what are best for me. And over time making those choices that are best become the easiest.  Look at me, being all deep and stuff.

I have an urge to attempt a run tonight, but we will see if it is still there by the time I get home from work around 6 tonight. Maybe I’ll challenge the husband to run along with me?

Until next time!

Note to Self

June 1, 2012

Today I took a break from my morning run, having been at it on both Wednesday and Thursday mornings this week.  There was heavy rain on the forecast anyways, and my calves thank me for the reprieve.

HOWEVER…..

My energy level is morning has been extremely low.  Getting up LATER and not being active first thing has left me feeling groggy and a bit cranky to boot. So next time, I’m going to switch out the morning run for an early gym or video workout. And I’ll be sweating it out after work at the gym tonight as well.